Okay ... sorry about being so negative in my last post but I was really freaking out and feeling like everything was going down the tubes. Like I have said before ... I tend to get very negative and aprehensive and look at ALL of the negatives right before I start fiming a new project. This time is aparently no different.

I have a lot more hope and a postivie outlook about everything - at least more than I did last week. I guess I have resigned myself to just try and do my absolute best and what will be will be. If everything falls to pieces around me and this project doesn't get off the ground - it won't be because of me.

I have had an amazing time working with the cast this past month, watching them grow into their parts. All our rehersals and the time we've spent together going over all this has really helped bring us together and make us all even closer - which will be a great thing when we start filming. I have so much confidence in EVERY ONE of the cast memebers. They are all amazing, funny, smart people and I think I will have the least trouble with them than with any other cast I've ever worked with. I have a history of getting frustrated on set and being a less than nice person - especially to Dustin. But he knows that I throw my frustrations at him so I don't wig out altogether and he takes it with a grain of salt and I appreciate him for that immensley.

So .. one week today we get going. Are we 100% ready to go and am I totally calm and at ease with the entire situation? No freakin way. But what the hell? We're makin a movie and I should at least have some fun with it and realize that everyone who is a part of this project is doing this because they want to be a part of it and they believe in me to giude them and help make the best damn movie we can. Is that too much to ask? I think not.